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Ministry Isn't Easy

Exodus 4:10
But Moses pleaded with the LORD, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.”

Sometimes we don't feel good enough to do what God has called us to do. And sometimes we use that as an excuse to get out of it because we give into fear. At least that's how it's been for me. 

Initially when the Lord called me to start London Square Children’s Ministry my argument was, I'm not good at leading and organizing.  I can jump in and help someone else who is leading and organizing but I can't start up a Ministry and lead it. I'm not good at that. And although that is true, it's not my strong suit, He equipped me to do it. And much fruit came from it. 

Then covid hit and I got pregnant.  A long season away from the Ministry for the safety of myself and my baby. But I think that safety from a virus turned into safety of my time and energy.  Honestly selfishness of my time and energy.  It's honestly easier not to do the Ministry the Lord has called me to do. My fatigue and brain fog are at an all time high and it's so much easier and comfortable not to add another thing to my plate.

But, I believe the Lord is calling me back out. It's going to look different than it did before and thats okay. The Lord has called me, and He will equip me and I'm excited for my daughter to see me walk in obedience and lean on the strength and resources of the Lord.

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