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The Lord's Way and Timing is Better than Our Own

My heart desires things that the Lord is not ready to give me in this season. My heart has been struggling and this morning the Lord comforted me. I am reading through 2 Corinthians and Proverbs. Today I read chapter 1 of 2 Corinthians which talks about the suffering we will encounter but how we will ABUNDANTLY share in God's comfort! I went on from there to read Proverbs 19, where verse 21 really hit me like a ton of bricks. " Many are the plans of a mans heart, but it is the Lords purpose that prevails." SHOOT DANG.

My heart has been envious of others who are getting married in this season of their lives. My heart has also been prideful in the sense I feel entitled, that because I may be older wiser, etc. I deserve marriage in this season more than they do. I'm thankful the Lord is gently correcting my hearts posture and my prayer in this season is that instead of moping and being filled with self pity I may use it to mature in Christ, securing and growing my identity in Him. Becoming more faithful to him and leaning on him above all else so that when that day I so desire comes IN GODS TIMING I may better be the woman God wants me to be and the woman my future husband deserves. I have seen before and believe always that the plans of my own heart are NOTHING in comparison to the plans my loving Father has for me.

I share this in hopes someone who sees it and is going through similar feelings may feel comforted in the fact that the Lord loves us and will bring us what we need in its season, ALL PRAISE BE TO HIM!

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