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I'm an Emotional Roller-Coaster

Something that is obvious to those who know me well...and let's be real, to those who don't...I am an emotional roller-coaster. I am EXTREMELY sensitive,moody and get irritated far too easily, as in I cry AT LEAST once a week, whether it be cause I am too happy, sad or stressed. If I'm not between like a 4 and 8 on the emotional scale, I'll probably cry at some point that day.

The Lord has been revealing to me more and more this semester how I SO EASILY let my emotions and heart issues get the best of me, leading me to be dramatic and irrational. But once again I have to say "THANK YOU DADDY FOR YOUR GRACE!!!" In my quiet time I read through some of the Pslams and read about how John Calvin (who a lot of my friends speak of a lot yet I know little about) calls the Pslams the anatomy of the soul. They show the highs and lows - the entire human experience of joy, pain, victory and suffering and throughout it all, how God is sovereign over and loving to both the joyful soul and the depressed one. THANK GOODNESS!!! Our emotions and finicky hearts will lead us astray, but the steadfast love of the Lord and His promises will not! Doesn't that just make your soul want to cling to Him?! I know it does for me!

A psalm of David. When he was in the Desert of Judah.

1 You, God, are my God,
    earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
    my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
    where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
    and beheld your power and your glory.
3 Because your love is better than life,
    my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
    and in your name I will lift up my hands.
5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
    with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
6 On my bed I remember you;
    I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help,
    I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
    your right hand upholds me.

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