Simply Redeemed

It's been a little over 5 months since my surgery. I thought the surgery itself was going to be me getting out of the woods. But now, I feel I am still deep in the dark woods. My surgery changed my body. Chronic pain and disease have crushed my spirit and have made my thoughts a moment by moment battle. I can't be as active as I was even before surgery. Literally most days all but my forearms and hands hurt. Before surgery, I was very social. Now I want to do nothing. Literally nothing. Not even hang out with my closest friends. The thought of going into Wal-Mart for milk gives me severe anxiety. I can't be the friend or family member I want to be. I can't do the things I want to do. I should be studying for my alternative certification but I'm literally exhausted every second of the day and even getting out my study material gives me a full blown anxiety attack. I want to be a good mentor and light for Jesus, but I am so so tired. My heart feels crushed at the id

An update on our week in Houston for all who want to know: Y'all, this week has been bittersweet. If I am honest, I am still processing it all and I am struggling a little bit. Lets be real, I am struggling a lot. Anyways, let me just tell you the whole journey. About a month ago, I was laying on the floor, literally sobbing and asking my Abba "why?" Every doctor we had talked to had either turned me away or told me there was nothing more they could do for me. We had gotten no answers since I got diagnosed in 2015. Cameron shared with our friend, Steve Murphy, the dead end we had hit and how hopeless we felt after a service about feeling helpless. Steve, being our family in Christ immediately wanted to help and connected us with another man in our church, Leeland. Leeland selflessly spent hours of his time to research and found us a doctor at M.D. Anderson in Houston. Although there was a waiting list to get into Dr. Slopis, we got an appointment the day we were

A year already? That is insane. Let me tell you a little bit about our first year. It has been pretty much a fairy tale in all honestly. We agree upon most things, laugh a lot and pick on each other a lot. Living with your best friend is absolutely the best thing ever! The Lord has had a lot of grace on us and has truly made our first year of marriage sweet and easy. Our hardships this year had nothing to do with us as a couple. The two hardest storms we have had to weather have been the disease in my body and our awful neighbors. Cameron has been so wonderful through this disease and has supported me, cried with me and rubbed my leg until I fall asleep. He is seriously the most servant hearted man I have ever met. We continue to pray for healing for me and health for our future children. Even more than that, we are praying that whatever comes, we glorify the name of our Father. We know that this disease is not FROM our Father but can be used FOR His glory. After almost a year of