Simply Redeemed

I Cannot Wait For That Day As the weather quickly changes from warm to cold And the leaves slowly change from green to gold The memories come back like a flood But i know this pain is not for good I know i will once again see your face,hear your voice And though my heart was shattered i would not take the other choice For you are happy and at home And have received your new name on that pretty white stone! I must admit im jealous of you Because i want to be there too But until that day  will do my best to make you proud And share my reason for the hope i have to all who are around It heals my heart to know I am here with yours And you are with mine And we will all be together when He says "Its time" Let me just say, I cannot wait until that day.

I have been struggling recently with feeling mistreated. Whether my feelings are valid or not, they are valid to God because I feel them. I have been reading "The Celebration of Discipline" by Richard Foster and it has been making me once again aware that sometimes I do not need to make my feelings known. I do not always need to make sure the person who is hurting me knows they are hurting me. There are times when it is just simply not needed nor will it make a difference. It is these times I need to let God be my justifier and defender. There are times I need to let Him fight the battle for me while I keep my mouth shut, sit silently and listen to Him. I know what God thinks of me so why does it matter what others think? Also if I am truly being mistreated, I am a daughter of a just God and he will handle it. So from now on when I feel mistreated, unless the Holy Spirit asks me to speak up, I will sit silently before my Father and allow Him to handle it and allow Him to sp

I was diagnosed with a disease in November called Neurofibromatosis. I have tumors interwoven in my nerves in my right leg and a tiny one in my nerve in my left leg. They hurt and can cause my future children to be born with my disease as well. There are more details but that is the nutshell version. I had been crippled by fear from November until April 25 when I had victory over my constant fear of my disease for three months. Until about A week ago I was free from fear in this area of my life. As a P.E.T scan (which I have to get every six months) approached I fell back into fear. Literally, I fell on my kitchen floor and bawled my eyes out before Jesus. My hearts cry is that these tumors be taken away. In the beginning of all this mess I was mad at God. I've never been mad at God for anything. In the beginning of all this mess my prayer was only God heal me completely here and now. But as time went on and I began to seek Jesus more, my heart towards my situation and my prayers

This letter is to my friends who claim Jesus as their Savior, who claim to live for him, who claim him on social media posts. This is for my friends who claim Jesus and who claim me as their friend. If you claim Jesus, and you claim me as your friend I see that as you giving me permission to call you out when you are blatantly walking in sin and not walking in what the Lord has for you. I have hesitated writing this for fear of being seen as judgmental and for fear of losing friendships, but honestly I feel like I have a righteous anger when it comes to this and I am not forcing you to read this post. I literally get mad when I see the bondage the enemy has some of y'all in. I get mad when I see some of y'all blinded, numbed and shackled down by your sin.  I want to start off by saying you're not a horrible person if you sin, we all have sin that holds us in bondage at times. We all have sin the enemy tempts us with. We all have sins that we are weak around. I am saying