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More Than Okay

A few months ago a precious friend of mine went to be with the Lord. It was not expected. While she was at one of her hardest moments my fiance kept telling me "it's okay, Mackenzie is going to be okay." In which my out of anger response was, "no, it's not okay, you can't promise that." Him being wise knew I needed time alone and left the room for a bit. It was then I cried out to God. Laying face down, literally bawling I heard the Lord say to me, "I can promise that she will be okay." "Whether she is fully restored back to being 100 % Mackenzie, whether she isn't completely healed and leaves the hospital with disabilities or if she comes to be with me, she will be okay. She will be more than okay because she is mine."

How comforting is that? No matter the circumstance, we are more than okay because we are God's children.

Even though this was only a few short months ago that the Lord revealed this to me I am still afraid, still lean on my own understanding and struggle to put my full trust in Him, I very recently found out I have neurofibomatosis, and I have some tumors on my nerves that are causing pain in my right leg. There are many degrees of NF and many different outcomes and there are still unanswered questions we are moving forward to getting answers to. I am scared. I am afraid if how serious my specific case of NF may be or become. I am fearful of the financial burden it may put on me and my soon to be husband and family. I am afraid it someday may become debilitating and I myself will become a burden to my husband. I am afraid because of this my children will have health issues. I am fearful of being a burden to anyone who loves me.

The past month I have been completely consumed by fear and quite honestly anger, which has left me with an unthankful heart. But then as I sat in a room full of some of the most spirit filled people I know encouraging me and telling me the finger prints of God they see in my life I was reminded once again I am His and no matter the outcome I will be MORE THAN OKAY. I was reminded by my family that I am of great worth and have a calling a purpose that will be fulfilled no matter what the circumstances. Although all of this is still scary to me, I am daily coming to my Daddy asking Him to help me through His spirit to trust Him more. I am daily reading His word, reading the reasons why I should trust Him. I am looking back at all the many times He was faithful in the past.

His promises are true, I am His precious little girl and no matter the outcome I will be  MORE THAN OKAY because my whole life is in His hands.

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