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My Psalm

I was challenged in 2010 to write my own Psalm. Here it is:

Lord I know You will do what is best for me, yet I refuse to give you full control.
My heart yearns to yearn for you, but my selfish desires pull me away from desiring you.
I know your love for me is deeper than I can even comprehend, yet I look to other things for satisfaction.
I know in my heart your plan for me is good and set before I was even born, yet I worry about my future.
You have equipped me with all I need to fight the good fight, but still I tremble in fear and do not take a step forward.
Lord you know my heart and you know I'm tired, tired of worrying, tired of it all.
All I desire is to lean against you and hear your heartbeat.
That is all I want, the still silence and your heartbeat, with nothing else to to distract me, nothing else to worry me, just me and my savior in a quiet place where you can restore my joy and peace.
A place where I can be refreshed so I can be sent back into this chaotic world and fight the fight for your kingdom.
But now I feel to tired, to restless...I need peace and quiet to be restored.
Lord my desire is to be crazy in love with you like I have never been in love with you before.
I want to be focused on you, ever aware of your presence.
I want all of this but it is a struggle because my selfishness gets in the way.
Restore my heart and my love for you O Lord of peace.



It is cool to remember why I felt this way and to see how the Lord saved me from certain life situations and has grown me.

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