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War

My heart has been breaking recently. No matter how optimistic I try to remain there is no escaping the fact that the enemy will be daily attacking us. Because of this fact I know we must constantly be on guard of his schemes and be prepared to defend and ready for war. I have been becoming more and more aware of how real spiritual warfare is. My heart breaks and I cry out to the Lord to fight for my friends and family who have fallen into the hands of then enemy, for the precious souls of the children at my church’s youth night who have all odds against them. So many times I wish and even try to fight the battle for them and then realize I’m struggling enough to fight my own battles the enemy has snuck into my life. Maybe we allow defeat to overtake us too soon. Many times I feel knocked down, off track and confused by the things life throws my way, but I wouldn't call it defeated. I think defeat is when you choose to stay in that position of confusion and hurt. If you fall and stand tall and come back for more you’re still victorious.


I know that I do not have enough weapons to fight without the Lord. I have no strength to continue unless he sustains me. My wisdom is little to none unless He pours it upon me. My discernment is blurred unless His spirit overwhelms my every decision. My thoughts are sinful unless the Father consumes them. I many times fail in the little things He desires me to be faithful in. I know I alone cannot conquer my own sin and struggles but He alone can conquer nations. I run back to the chains and slavery of my sin and He leads me back to freedom. So no matter how long or hard the battle, I won’t stop fighting, because in the Lord Victory is certain.

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