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So I am new to this whole blogging thing so bear with me while I figure it out. I love journaling, so I figured I might as well share a little with the world. So here goes nothing...my first post:

I'm Kacey Lynn <3

  I know I don't have all the answers, but I daily read a book that does.
 I know that I'm not always quick to forgive others who wrong me, but I follow a God who is.
 I know I'm not always the greatest at listening to others problems, but I pray to One who is.
 I know I have so many flaws and imperfectipons, but I follow Someone who has not one. 
 I know I don't have it all together, but I believe in a Savior that does.
 I know I can be filled with pride sometimes, or should I say all the time, but I follow a Humble  Servant who has nothing but humility within Him. 

 So as I come to these realizations I ask that you don't look at me, but please focus on the Jesus that lives in me! 
I don't pray for humility, I pray for a better understanding of who God is and who I am not and that within itself will leave me humbled. 
I don't pray for faith, I pray for opportunities to trust Him more so that my faith may be strengthened. 
I don't pray for God to take struggles away from me, I pray for the Spirit to strengthen my obedience so that I place the blame on myself for my shortcomings and not God. 
I don't pray for riches or fame, I pray that His Glorious riches and fame would be known. 
I need trials to grow, I need difficult times to discover joy. Because it is within those difficult times that God grows me. 
What I don't need is difficult times from my own inability to follow Him. 
If I'm not learning I'm probably not seeking. 
If I'm not growing I'm probably not risking. 
If I'm not hurting then I'm probably not loving enough.


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